moopfmerising musings

I’ve got a lot of stuff going on in my head at the moment, a lot of ideas, a lot of thoughts. A lot of things I need to do. It’s getting on top of me a little, knowing where to begin and what to “pick off” first. It looks like I’m not producing much at the moment but I am doodling a lot, it’s just that I’m not happy with the strength of what’s coming out. Plus there’s something else I’m trying to organise, and that’s taking longer than I hoped for.

Hopefully some of my ideas will work and I’ll start churning out some new stuff soon. I feel some pressure all of a sudden because a piece I did recently, That Special Someone, has proved to be the most popular thing I’ve posted on deviantArt to date, by a very long way, and i’ve been quite taken aback by the response to it. It was a quick doodle, if I’m honest. I didn’t over-think it, it just happened. It’s one of the few times where I’ve been pleased with a piece as soon as I’ve finished it, generally I start hating a piece just before I’ve finished it and can only appreciate it objectively a few days later. Trying to re-create the freedom in that piece I’m finding difficult. I didn’t have to try with that and now the harder I try to capture that freedom again, the further away it goes. I need to stop trying

Also Saturday was a tough day, truth be told. I had to have my cat Bod put down. He was 15 years old and I had had him since he was born (his mother lived in the shared house I lived in). I’d known him longer than my wife, I was fresh out of my teens when I got him, and it was weird letting go, even though I knew it was for the best. I didn’t want him to suffer. I do miss him, though.